Monday, July 4, 2011

My 10 Commandments--Revisited

With me restarting my journey, I found it important to remind myself of my own life rules... sometimes I get so caught up in things/people, I forget what is the most important thing in my life...which is myself.


1.  Tell people they are beautiful, not only on the outside, but on the inside (it matters the most).




2.  A smile and hello can go a very long way.



3.  Selflessness is hard to do; but the outcome is priceless.


4.  Sometimes people need a second, third, fourth and tenth chance;; this life is full of trials and errors ;; and perfection is boring anyways.♥


5.  Life is just another school;; we are always being taught lessons.




6.  These lessons are NOT mistakes;; and there is no such thing as failure, just lessons that didn’t work as well as others.



7.  There are always lessons to be learned; as Gandhi said, “live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.”



8.  I’ve seen this somewhere and loved it “other people are merely mirrors of you;; you cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.”



9.  You set your limits;; you know all of the answers about yourself and you know what is best.



10.  Be Yourself-- at the end of the day, that's all you can do.


Finally Finished...so back to business

Mission: Graduation Completed... now back to the business of becoming healthier...
Now that i'm done with school...I'll be doing more updates. I can't wait to restart my journey.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Life is in complete Shambles

My life is insane right now...graduation in two months && a promotion, but after May 6th, i'll be back into the swing of things...
but in the meantime please take this survey... favorite designer in the whole entire world needs women (who like to shop A LOT) to fill this out.

click on this link:  https://www.surveymonkey.com/up_and_coming

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Years... BUT no New Me

Like I've said before what I'm trying to achieve is a better lifestyle... So ultimately I'm not changing who I am...but I'm making improvements to myself. It's 2011... is there any better time than now to get the stepping up????!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Dear Santa,

Well...after disappoints over and over again...I finally found some goodies I wouldn't mind under my Christmas tree:


torrid--combat boots... after i beat them up a little

Dorothy Perkins Blazer
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forever21plus dress but without belt & with jacket

Torrid Goonies Tee--- i heart screen prints... and plus it's the Goonies on top of it

with a lot of fine tuning...this jacket will be worth it...
too cute torrid oxford's with lace :) here i come 3rd grade me!

New Day; New Start

Final paper of the semester in...now back me... I'm out of school for the next 30 days, so I've decided to just work as hard as I can in the gym and making sure I'm making the right decisions when it comes to my eating habits.  I've decided not to set a goal because I want this rainbow (my hard work, consistency, etc) to never meet that pot of gold...because it is a lifestyle change. 


Tonight I will have my weigh-in :(...so brace yourself... but the good news is ... I'M BACK!!!!

Monday, October 25, 2010

OMG! Graduation dress options!

something told me to go to monifc.com and I did and saw these... I don't think they're too much for graduation. Do you?


15 more days of loving...

8-my courage: I'm trying this new thing called being spontaneous ... it's a little hard, but i'm surviving
9-my laugh: it's pretty much hilarious by its self.
10-my hair: i'm really enjoying the short hair and more i loose the more i cut off
11- my scars:  all of them aren't just about painful events some of them are from fun times with crazy accidents
12-my ability to be empathic and sympathetic
13- my tattoos: there's a story behind every single one
14- having the ability to laugh at myself
15- my ability to think outside of the box
16- my nose: yep it's a little big... but oh well it's my kinda big nose
17- my hands: the only physical thing i got from my mother
18-my shape: i know i'm trying to loose weight, but at least i'm pretty much proportionate
19- my thighs...somewhat
20- my voice: i know it's a little much at times... but i love it
21- my facial expressions: one word... priceless

steady shedin'

we'll i'm happy to say i'm still losing... and the 30 before Thanksgiving is going great thus far... update on weight loss in a couple of days. Unfortunately school is driving insane!!!! But I did have the chance to go out one night with one of my sisters! We compared these pictures together... and definitely saw a change! :)

                             

Saturday, October 16, 2010

crunch time-ish.

it may be safe to say that the don't buy anything until you loose 15 pounds didn't go well... but i've dedicated myself to a new goal... 30 pounds before Christmas... but I really want most of it off by Thanksgiving.  Why these days? November and December are the two months I literally eat  a whole lot and participate in little exercise. Instead of accepting the weight gain... I've decided to fight it. 

Talk is cheap, right? It is! So, I've developed a game plan for the next two months...

1200 caloric intake
4-5 times/week exercise
drinking only allowed once a week (no girly fruity mixed drinks)
no fast food
no "pretty" drinks from Starbucks

It's not going to be easy... but it's so attainable! I'm starting Monday... wish me good luck!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

So far...7 days of loving myself the way I am



I love love love this song. In order for you to allow someone to love you... you must love yourself to the fullest, flaws and all! Here's my first seven days... getting harder and harder everyday... but that's what I'm trying to change. My perception of myself... and hopefully your perception of yourselves.
1- moles: they remind me of my grandmother... she had them all over her face.
2- eyes: I was picked on because they are smaller, but they've grown on me... && i love them.
3- spirit: i love helping others who are thankful
4- confidence:  I don't have the highest self-esteem... but I love the fact that when I feel like I look good... my confidence gets a major boost
5- my rolls: uhhh... the fact that i see them shrinking is the best thing about them!
6- complexion: in the black community, I still see skin color being a determinet of beauty.  I love the fact that i'm dark skinned... and I will embrace that FOREVER.
7- smile: its warm... but can be fake at the right times.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

loving yourself.

Remember these percentages, 54% & 78%. Now think back to when you were 13 then 17.  When you were those ages, what did you worry about the most? Was it school, significant others, work or family? I know when I was those ages those were some of my concerns, but I worried most about my appearance.  Fifty-four percent of girls 13 years old, are unhappy with their bodies; 78 percent of young ladies 17 years old are unhappy with their bodies. Do you still a problem here? I definitely do... so for the next 60 days, I'm going to write down something I love about myself.  I'm going to have to force myself...but i'm sure there is at least 60 things I love about myself :)





Sunday, September 19, 2010

one WEEK left!

okay...i have one week left until my deadline... and i'm down six pounds... just 9 more to go...
i promised myself I would would remain positive because I can lose the pounds in 7 days... it is very realistic (continuing to be positive)... my weeks are crazy so hopefully I'll be able to keep you posted. <333

Monday, September 13, 2010

I got work to do!

Week one of "shop or die" (from not shopping)... && the verdict is in... I've lost one pound. WTF???! I need to shed 14 more in like 2 weeks... how am I going to do this? There's only one thing that will give me the motivation to push myself harder &&& it's this dress from Monif C that I absolutely adore...

*fingers crossed*

Saturday, September 11, 2010

plus size models during fashion week?

well not exactly, the designers showcasing mostly plus size lines aren't part of the Mercedes Benz Fashion Week, but their shows will be during fashion week... but I'm sure it will be great! I'll keep you posted on the designers and my favorite outfits hitting the catwalk.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Dear Sanity, Where are you?

The land of Jaleesa has been a complete mess these last three weeks.  School, work, && my camera erasing ALL of my pics (i should definitely start backing those things up)... new hair cut... that I totally am in LOVE with!!!! :)



So what's new with me??! I've been trying to come up with ideas to continue to push me in the right directions... some of the ideas:  double chin go bye-bye, look mom no jacket, etc... a little silly but cute.  Luckily, I didn't have to think of any "cute" sayings because a co-worker challenged and another co-worker to loose 15 pounds before we could buy ANYTHING that's not a necessity (not even earrings or make up).  This will give me the push I need and help me with my addiction problem to clothes... So here I go SHOP or DIE!!! cross your fingers for me I HAVE to loose it by Oct. 2nd... big work discount PLUS we have DKNY, that is absolute gorg.  

Friday, August 20, 2010

Goodbye 50 pounds... I never want to see you again

Last summer, I was tipping the 300lb+ scale... which is ridiculously unhealthy ... this morning I was 251... its feels good to say that. I will reflect on my experience later this weekend today I have to celebrate

Monday, August 16, 2010

ugghhh. my deadline is FRIDAY!

OMGeee I'm so excited, nervous, anxious, &&& insanely obsessed with my last weigh in.  Let's look at my wins over these last few months:  I've lost at least an entire pant size (tight 22 to nice 20)!!! (I squeezed into a 18 at work saturday & almost cried... ) I'm trying to loose those 10 pounds so I can get in them comfortably... this week, but that would be CRAZY && UNHEALTHY... my shirt sizes still vary because I'm so top heavy... but I have dropped a shirt size.  Nowwww... my opportunities... I feel like I would've had more success if I exercised more...but this process is all about PROGRESS... &&& this process has truly been life changing.

Well Friday we'll see how far I've came... && I'm celebrating with one of my besties!!! :))) pics coming soon.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

"No wonder our perception of beauty is distorted"

Do you remember this video? I wonder what happened to it? Probably in a vault, safe away from public along with Tyra Banks "Kiss my fat A**" episode.


I have given up on changing other's perception of beauty until... three days ago a little girl said "look mom she's so pretty" && she was pointing at me.  For the first time in my life, I thought I was going to cry from that comment.  The little girl had to be at least three; At three, I was surrounded by Barbies, dolls, & movies that showed me one type of beauty.  The fact that she is surrounded by those same influences and more and she still has ability to define what's beautiful in her eyes, shows me we are somewhat growing as a society. In that moment, I really thought to myself "yes, my children won't be as screwed up as I thought they would be."

My Sweet Chaotic Life

These last couple of weeks have been HELL for me;; but really bittersweet. I've moved into my very own apartment, which was a giant step for me. Also work has been insane, but luckily my district and regional managers had the chance to see me step up to a challenge.  Now that the craziness is over, I finally have time to give you an update on my progress(?). 

With me moving &&& working crazy hours these last weeks... I haven't been able to see what's out there in the world of retail (except at LB and online).  With the fall lines coming in the stores, I'm super excited to see what new favorites I will be adding to my forever expanding closet. 

The 5 Trends I will be stalking for this upcoming Fall season:

1. deep BOLD hues--> I LOVE this dress from jibri


2. Menswear Inspired Suits


3.  Bringing the Fifties Back---> this with a full skirt <333 (Dorothy Perkins)















4. GOLD -- instead of the normal beige neutrals... gold accents will brighten up my gloomy fall days

5. Long over skinny -- leggings, jeggings, skinny jeans are here to stay (for now) && I'm loving how I can easily put together outfits. 

NEXT WEEK is my "final" weigh in... I wonder if I can squeeze into those size D Spanx... we shall see :)